I waited patiently for it to stroll back on to the farm, apologetic but invigorated.
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I knew the pace I was on was not sustainable and figured my discipline was treating itself to a rumspringa.
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These days I still manage to write, but the times I am able to do so for more than three sustained hours have the temporal periodicity of comets with near-earth trajectories.įor a while I hoped that my inability to concentrate on writing and reading was the result of a charred and overworked thalamus. These days I play video games in the morning, play video games in the afternoon and spend my evenings playing video games. These days I have read from start to finish exactly two works of fiction – excepting those I was also reviewing – in the last year. I rarely felt very disciplined during this half decade, though I realise this admission invites accusations of disingenuousness. "Once upon a time" refers to relatively recent years (2001-2006), during which I wrote several books and published more than 50 pieces of magazine journalism and criticism – a total output of, give or take, 4,500 manuscript pages. Once upon a time I was, more or less, content. Once upon a time I did occasionally binge on games, but these binges rarely had less than a fortnight between them. Once upon a time I played video games almost exclusively with friends. Once upon a time I wrote off as unproductive those days in which I had managed to put down "only" a thousand words.
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O nce upon a time I wrote in the morning, jogged in the late afternoon and spent most of my evenings reading.